Meditation/Betty’s Verse Of The Day/12-20-14
Meditation/Betty’s Verse Of The Day/12-2-14
Luke 1:30-31 (NIV)
30 But the angel said to her, “Do not be afraid, Mary; you have found favor with God. 31 You will conceive and give birth to a son, and you are to call him Jesus.
Something about that name, Jesus..Amen. His name is called and His love reaches us so we can see His amazing ways to live for Him and to always seek His face. Unto us a child is born, God gave us this special gift, please listen to the video below and read the verse and He will wipe away all our tears, Let’s Just say Jesus..Love Betty B..Let’s Pray..
Precious Jesus O how we love you, we praise your name Lord, we adore you and we thank you for your sacrifice, for you were born and you died, you gave this to all of us, help us to see more clearly, we ask that you keep us safe and we always praise your name, today Lord, we say Jesus, In His Name we pray, Amen.
GOD WILL WIPE AWAY EVERY TEAR FROM THEIR EYES;
THERE SHALL BE NO MORE DEATH, NOR SORROW, NOR
CRYING. THERE SHALL BE NO MORE PAIN, FOR THE
FORMER THINGS HAVE PASSED AWAY. REVELATION 21:4 *NKJV
THERE SHALL BE NO MORE DEATH, NOR SORROW, NOR
CRYING. THERE SHALL BE NO MORE PAIN, FOR THE
FORMER THINGS HAVE PASSED AWAY. REVELATION 21:4 *NKJV
Verse Of The Day!
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Betty's Verse Of The DAY 
ACCORDING TO MATTHEW 18:18-20
LET US ALL STAND IN 100% AGREEMENT WITH OUR SISTER Betty Bolden’s HOLY SPIRIT ANOINTED PRAYER
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December 20, 2014 at 3:31 pm
Betty, thank you for this post. The song is also a confirmation for me of some “success” I DID have in my former marriage. And it comes on a perfect day. Just yesterday, I was once again hit with guilt over leaving a verbally and emotionally abusive marriage after decades.
A lot of the work of recovery has been accomplished after, now, two years and no contact except the necessary, but I am counseled that it will really take as long as it needs to take. Guilt over every single mistake I ever made is the hardest attack, as it were, to combat, and I realize this is part of how I was controlled when in the marriage and by my upbringing in a legalistic denomination.
Meanwhile, the ex is ensconced in a new relationship of about a year and a half, and on with his life. He tried a couple of times to get me back by appealing to my “kindness and compassion” before moving on, however.
In the midst of the fray (abuse, alcoholism, just plain immaturity, in the middle of also good times), when the fog, confusion, and evil left me numb and not knowing how or what to do or say, on several critical occasions, I took myself to another room, closed the door, and quietly said the name of Jesus over and over.
This does have real power. At least to clear the mind and seek wisdom for the moment, and for what’s next.
On several other occasions, when MY “heart” for him was broken, filled with anger and resentment, and/or simply nonexistent, my “counsel” from the Holy Spirit, was this: “Ask for MY heart for him.”
That was extraordinary. Another powerful move. But it took time, too.
And, I believe was what helped save me from rage and bitterness, and what may very well have prompted our relationship to “turn good.” We eventually got some good Christian counseling, something I finally took a stand on, and this time he agreed to, and the change was evident to us and to those around us. That ended, however.
Things were not as severe, but something went bad again, after several years, and remained as an undertone for the last, say, fifteen years or so, as I look back on it. I never did feel completely comfortable with him again.
And, yes, I pulled back hoping to avoid the criticisms, put-downs, however seemingly “for my own good,” or whatever the explanation controlling people like to give… I am sure his narrative is that I “gave him the silent treatment.” Of course, there is silence to punish and silence to survive.
And so, one last time, it came to praying for God’s heart for my then husband. As almost an afterthought, I also “asked” God if maybe this pattern could somehow come to an end. I don’t have the stamina I used to have, and who knew what his hurtful behavior/attitude was leading up to. In the early years there was physical abuse, and I knew I could no longer tolerate any of that nor should I.
For those who are now blaming me for not leaving sooner: do the research.
And note: it’s twice as hard for Christian women to leave abusive relationships due to the teachings in many churches that blame her in some part or in all parts for his choices (or, blame him for hers, depending on who the perpetrator is). Or, teachings that insist that if she is “silent” and “submissive” enough he will choose to change his abusive behavior. (Christian men who are victims of abuse must have it harder, come to think of it, in this blame-the-victim game…)
And so, when his attitude turned worse and worse the last few weeks up until that final night when he committed one last, alcohol-fueled, screaming rage against me, saying the most hurtful things you can imagine, the severity of which I hadn’t witnessed in years (note: nothing visible led up to this, although some family members noted his change of attitude for the worse and expressed concern), and I “heard” the Holy Spirit say, “You need to leave, now,” I did. There were extended family crises going at at that time, too, but who knows if they contributed or not.
Note: leaving was the last thing on my mind. This was God’s doing. I would have gone back for round 3 (having “talked him down” twice, grasping at trying to comprehend what he was doing and what my response should or could be), and who knows what he would have allowed himself to do at that point. I might be dead. I think he even surprised himself at the venom that came forth.
And so, when a spirit of guilt hounds me for every single little mistake I ever made in that relationship as somehow causing the evil perpetrated against me all those years (again, there were good times, too) such reminders of the power of the name of Jesus and God’s heart-changing power come back to mind. And, in the midst of it all, when I responded thus, I knew those God-inspired actions would give me comfort at length, no matter what happened.
Although I am still somewhat affected by the condemnation, obviously, I can also “respond” with having done the right thing, at least by those two “responses” prompted by the Holy Spirit.
If nothing else, I can say, “But I did call on the name of the Lord, and I did pray for God to change my heart—and He did.” Numerous times. And this helps dispel the spirit of condemnation. For how can you blame someone for that? There is no law against love. God’s love, that is, and His ability to impart this to us and in us when we ask for His help, even in the midst of our imperfections.
I still pray for God’ s heart for my ex husband even “from afar,” but I have also added prayer for God’s heart for me in this still relatively new “territory” in which I live. Your post–and the song–I believe are God’s reminders to me of His love today.
And one more thing: I don’t have any problem with forgiveness (for I can hear the critics on this topic, too).
The man will always be the love of my life. I pray for him whenever prompted. He comes from a rough family culture within which much harm was done him, but God is there powerfully for him, too. He was a very good “Dr. Jekyll,” but I believe I am no longer bound to an increasingly frightening “Mr. Hyde.”
And so, thank you for this post. It ministered to me greatly today.
And, Merry Christmas!
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December 20, 2014 at 4:34 pm
Hi sis, i am so sorry to hear that you had a time of trial but God says these will make us stronger, and we have to press on, the devotion and song today is about pressing on and we go forth and we have help with God, keep looking up and God never intended for woman to be used for door mats, Love Ya..
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December 21, 2014 at 12:20 pm
Thank You JESUS for what you have done for this entire world. We didn’t deserve it. You did it anyway. I thank you for Loving me. I am always bless because you are with me. We thank you for your Mercy, and Grace. Amen!! \O/
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December 21, 2014 at 1:42 pm
amen
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December 22, 2014 at 11:21 am
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December 21, 2014 at 1:43 pm